The past few weeks has been trying for me.
You know that I suffer from ALS, I am not able to move most of my body, and I can’t talk. What I can do is smile and move my eyes. With my eyes, I am able to control a computer that reads my eye movements. With my eyes, I communicate with my family and I write Torah articles, I am also able to text and email.
My joys in life are my wife and children, lifting the spirits of others and teaching Torah through my articles.
Over the past few weeks, I couldn’t get my eyes to focus on the letters I wanted to write. I don’t know if it was psychological or physical, but my eyes weren’t cooperating. Writing one word took as long as five minutes. I can’t even begin to tell you how frustrating it was.
I tried everything from relaxing to praying. Not being able to write to my wife and children, I felt useless as a husband and father. Not being able to write Torah articles, I felt useless and irrelevant. I felt like I was in jail. My thoughts were, “what possible purpose could I have, if I can’t communicate?”
That is where having a good wife comes in. My wife Dina said to me, “It is obvious that Hashem wants something else of you and that writing is not the only way, or perhaps less writing, but more meaningful writing, from the heart, is what Hashem wants from you. On Shabbos, when you don’t use the eye gaze computer, you are still there and relevant. Maybe you should think of it like Shabbos, even if you can only see and look at people, that is meaningful to us.”
“If you are alive, it means that you are relevant to Hashem, and that you make a difference.”
She also organized a farbrengen in my honor, where people took on good resolutions in Torah and mitzvahs, in kindness and in living life in the ways of Hashem. And people around the world have also made resolutions, said prayers and sent me well wishes.
You don’t know how powerful your Torah, mitzvahs, kindness, prayers and resolutions are, and I am grateful for every one of them. I am also grateful to all of you who prayed for me at holy sites.
So far, I have not gone wrong listening to Dina’s advice, she lifted me up, helped me reframe my situation and bring meaning back to my life.
Thank you for all the love you’ve all sent my way.
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I am an old lady currently dealing with some health challenges, thankfully nothing anywhere near what you have, but challenging nonetheless. The psychological component is that I feel frustrated because I have always been a giver and in my current situation I am not able to give in the ways I used to. Reading what Dina told you, “If you are alive, it means that you are relevant to Hashem, and that you make a difference.”, and that you got strength from that, gave me strength too. 🙂 Thank you very much for being an incredible role model and may… Read more »
Thankyou for this heartfelt reminder to appreciate my spouse
Dear Dina and Yitzy, May we reach the level of Hashem when his worlds of revealed good and hidden good are one! Moshiach now. Complete health and oneness of HaShem in every detail. Thank you for sharing a ray of this.
So inspiring Yitzi, we love you! My kids listen to shine a little light everyday in the car on the way to school.
I was concerned that I had not heard from you in such a long time. I’m sorry you were having issues with your eyes, and I pray that the situation is totally resolved. I was on the trip to the Ukraine with Dina a few years ago, and I have had concern for all of you since then.
May Moshiach come now!
Keep on inspiring! Know that there are many people rooting and being uplifted from you.
Have a good Shabbos
You and your family are an inspiration to TENS of thousands by now. Your articles are priceless- deep yet accessible
You are SUPER relevant. And your wife is one of a kind .
Davenning for good news
The Rebbe MHM Shlita has nachas ruach from each and every word you write in these last seconds of GOLUS👍👍👍
Dear Yitzi,
your vulnerability in sharing your deepest hardship-of being irrelevant, touches the core of us all. At some point in life, we all face that innate fear- what am I worth? GIving voice to such depth allows the rest of us to face ourselves. Thank you! you and your family are a vehicle of inspiration just by being.
U were inspiring the Best counselor in Toronto 30 years ago while I was head counselor and now still inspiring me to give out the l’chaims every week to my colleagues in Kings Supreme Court while pointing to your perfectly written secha.
Thank you!
Refua Shelaima!
Bhatslocha!
I make a מי שברך for you Yitsy, every single shabbos. And will keep doing so until Hashem finally decides to free you just like he freed Sholom Mordechai when we will all- throughout the world dance for joy !!! May we not have to wait any longcer
You’re an absolutely incredible and special person.
I am in awe of you. I will strive to always be positive no matter what and follow your amazing example!!!!
I remember yitzy teaching in ocean parkway. I was a student at the time in your class. I remember when you told us you were leaving. We were all broken with lots of tears. But it seams like you have managed to once again become my teacher.
Thanks
You are my hero
Thank you for your touching words
So raw and beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing. Wishing you a Refuah Shleima and only revealed good!
HaShem should bring moshiach already
Just had a wonderful visit with Yitzi this past Sunday. Yitzi and Dina you are an inspiration to thousands! Keep stong and may Hashem bless you and your family with revealed good specifically for Yosef Yitschok ben Brocha with a Refuah Shlayma Mishiach Now!
love you guys
Dear Yitzi,
It was 5751-2 in Tomchei Tmimim Morrison. I was new at Yeshiva and didn’t know anyone. You were one of the guys that made me feel welcome. You and your family are amazing. Actually, I don’t know if there are words that describe what you are all are.
All I can say is keep on smiling, writing and inspiring until the imminent revelation of the Rebbe Melech Hamoshiach, when you will be able to laugh, dance and sing.
Wow, such amazing shalom bayis. Such deep care. We all have something to learn from here…
Wow you have an amazing wife and family💕 There was a basketball coach named jimmy v., who was diagnosed with cancer his philosophy was “never give up” you Rabbi are truly blessed
It was so good to read your article. Your message is so powerful. HaShem wants you and you are relevant ALL the time. Every thing you can do is so precious. Big or small. Figure out what you CAN do. HaShem should send you refua sheleima immediately.
Saddest and most inspiring article I have ever read.