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a regular girl
March 6, 2013 8:45 pm

hi everyone. many ppl, know me, or, who i represent, . im a regular crown hieghts girl go to one of the crowm heights skools for girls. no issues, chassidsh, perfect, right. actualy, no. i was molested for years . im not saying this to get pity out of anyone, as number 6 and 4 say. one day, i decided to speak up. at a skool shabbaton, i discovered that over 17 girls in my grade were abused.3/4 of them had never told thire families or anything. like i said, im not posting this for pity. i just want ppl… Read more »

i agree with # 42 completly
March 4, 2013 10:27 pm

shame on you # 4 and 6 do u not understand people like me who went through this can only tell you how traumatic it is we have to open our eyes and stop being so naive please thank you anonymous for your article it gave me stregh and courage you disserve a standing ovation

excuse me
January 30, 2013 6:12 pm

Ecuse me, #4! im shocked, appaled, absolutely, DISGUSTED u could make such a comment. if u dont like these stories, dont read them. here this women tried to get her story out, in order to hel others, and u say those terribel things? i cant even belive they let you post that. and you know, th reason why this women’s story is so tragic, is b/c she obiluasly knew if she ever said anything, she would be shot down just like she was now.and, ppl, stop comparing to the holucost, u all have no idea, and its wrong to judge.… Read more »

Abuse is worse then the holocaust
January 29, 2013 7:53 pm

They holocaust was done by a group of people against a group of people that are persecuted in every generation. They died al-kiddish- hashem. Again they died.

Abuse is something you live through its like living through death and still having to live. Yes, some people were abused during the holocaust. Yes that’s way above me to survive. But the point is most of the people that were torchered the most died they didn’t have to live the rest of their life having been abused and continuing to be abused. And the holocaust wasn’t done by family.

A Strong Statementof Support is Needed
January 29, 2013 3:33 am

Unfortunately abusers are unrepentant and can find all kinds of ways to convince themselves and others that they are mamash tzadikim. and that the victim is in the wrong.

To number 4
January 27, 2013 4:19 pm

I feel for u, u must have had it rough to be so cold and emotionally detached. I hope u will be helped in some way from this brave girls article.

Thanks for sharing
January 27, 2013 12:51 am

Best wishes

To #6
January 27, 2013 12:09 am

I was abused for 2years when I was a child and I know that when a person has been abused he/she makes a subconscious decision to either be a victim or a survior. Both are normal. As someone who was “ABUSED” you should have more understanding and Rachamim for those who don’t have the strength to just move on.BH you are strong, don’t flaunt it. That’s just nasty!

January 26, 2013 11:50 pm

I, too, share a similar story and tried several therapists all hurting me more without helping me much. I am on the path of recovery now, since I’ve joined the 12-step fellowship of Survivors of Incest Anonymous. It has provided the safety and support system I had so desperately needed more than anything else to heal from the pain and trauma. I am healing and growing one day at a time and coming out of my protective shell of isolation. May all of you suffering the pain of any form of abuse find your path to healing and recovery. I… Read more »

Email address from author of this post
January 26, 2013 9:31 pm

If you would like to contact me please feel free to email [email protected]

January 26, 2013 7:00 pm

You should thank Hashem that you were able to come out of your personal Mitzraim which is the effects from the abuse that you suffered. Your story highlights the needs for parents and schools to know the signs of abuse and that it is also important to know what to do when the abuse is found out. Schools probably would not know what to do with a child if they found out if a child is being abused.

contact info
January 26, 2013 6:48 pm

Is it possible for you (or the collive) to post a email address of this author so other (in similar) positions can contact her.


no 4 shame shame shame on you!
January 26, 2013 12:08 pm

maybe you need to go through an abuse and than you’ll tell us exactly how it feels. you peace of horror!

to #4&6
January 26, 2013 8:48 am

i think it’s time you took your words back

To #4
January 26, 2013 8:11 am

Holocaust survivors have been abused /tormented by Nazis!!
These forms abuse have been perpetrated by Jewish people- whom our children were taught to TRUST & RESPECT!!!!!

To #4
January 25, 2013 7:35 pm

You have no idea what you are talking about. You clearly do not understand what abuse of that nature is. You show ignorance, therefore I can not even write words to insult you. I suggest that you educate yourself about the horrible ramifications of childhood abuse. I hope you never experience or know a child who experiences physical and worse abuse, but if you did you would not be as heartless and uncompassionate. What kind of Jew are you, if you are one.

to #4
January 25, 2013 4:11 pm

I have to believe only someone who identifies with the abuser would say something so ignorant and cruel. Yasher koach to the writer of this article. May more people come forward and help everybody understand how widespread this problem is.

#4 u r the problem
January 25, 2013 3:17 pm

I’m not sure if this was your idea of a little tease for attention or if u truly are a sociopath in the making since they have no feelings for others’ pain.In either case, try and get some help for your sake.Abuse is very real and esp.the one the author speaks of and it robs children of their childhood. Holocause survivors are like a cracked vase.You can glue it together and make it functional but it is still full of fragile cracks.

To 4
January 25, 2013 3:16 pm

I hate it when people use the Holocaust as you did! My grandfather lived the Holocaust. Yes, he survived, and wanted that noone would EVER suffer ANY abuse. I am sure he would DETEST your “comment”.

Project Extreme helps!
January 25, 2013 1:32 pm

Project Extreme has helped numerous abuse victims from Lubavitch families. Rabbi AY Weinberg is an Ohev Yisroel, he is a leading expert on at risk teens and is saving lives every single day. From their website: Project Extreme was founded in 2001 to help teens-at-risk reconnect with themselves, their families and their communities. Thousands of teens have been helped by Project Extreme’s broad portfolio of both short and long term programs designed to assist teens in need and their families to overcome their many challenges by providing them with life skills training, social support networks and professional counseling in a… Read more »

#4 and #6..
January 25, 2013 12:47 pm

If, BeEzras Hashem, these facts are not part of your reality, nor the reality of people around you ( and, you never really know….), then at least have the good grace to BE QUIET, even if you cannot find it in your heart to believe..and to feel someone’s pain. To the writer..May Hashem continue to give you strength and true Simcha and peace.

To # 4
January 25, 2013 11:57 am

What world do you live on.
Wake up and smell the coffee.

So sad ., so hurt . so much pain.
January 25, 2013 11:07 am

Thanks COL for posting this article and others like this. It is good for parents and children alike to be aware that this is the reality of what is happening. So the most likely solution to prevent this from happening to your child is simply to arm your child with enough knowledge to know right from wrong regarding the physical behavior of others towards them. and we as a community also need to comply with clear cut halachos of yichud. children very young can be taught the rules of yichud. if someone breaks the rules of yichud who says that… Read more »

To 4 and 6
January 25, 2013 10:36 am

Kids of People like u are the ones that molesters go after, because they know the parents r stupid and naive ! Be aware !!

To numbers 4 and 6
January 25, 2013 9:37 am

Why are you downplaying someone else’s genuine pain? She has moved on with her life.. She has taken responsibility for her life. What is your problem exactly?.

to # 4
January 25, 2013 9:34 am

seriously you are insane. there are children every day that are getting molested day after day and all you care about is not wanting to have sympathy for these children. you are crazy and especially in crown hights i hear so may stories of girls and biys being molested and its so sad and the saddest thing is some are so naive that they dont know whats going on because their parents dont tell them about this stuff and also they are too scared to say anything about it. they are traumatized for life and as every knows the first… Read more »

Clarity for people like 4 and 6
January 25, 2013 9:32 am

Some people writing comments may be young, and/or naive, and not realize the type of abuse being referred to in these articles. We are not talking about a parent yelling at their child, or a ‘mean’ teacher. We are not talking about mildly abusive behavior, which every person does encounter at some point in life. There is abuse that rips apart a child’s mental health; that injures him or her for life. It is greater suffering than the worst physical beating, and it is often perpetrated by a close friend of the family, a relative, or a person in authority.… Read more »

moshe der
January 25, 2013 9:12 am

i would just like to make sure that the writer (and my heart goes out to the writer for all she suffered) is speaking about “physical” abuse and it seem that she is because she says “abused my body” as parents we need to speak to our children about this and pray that we get through to them that there is no room for this type of behavior in our lives. and again we cannot change the past and we can only show sympathy and do whatever we can to all the victims BUT WE CAN CHANGE THE FUTURE let… Read more »

From The Author of this post
January 25, 2013 9:06 am

The point of the letter is to give HOPE and encouragement to survivors of abuse. Not to bring anyone down. It is to shed light on the ability for survivors to heal and have normal lives. Stories dont need to have a sad ending.

To poster #4 – you stated “if these survivors were able to build there lives back to normal how much more so can this women.” I’m not sure which article you read because my article was precisely how I built my life back to normal.

Anyone who would like to contact me can email [email protected]

To 4 & 6
January 25, 2013 8:24 am

I see others wrote it but it should be said again and again. Shame on you. You have no idea.

to those who dismiss
January 25, 2013 8:06 am

Know that two categories of people exist in the Jewish communities. The first are the abused and those who suffer along with them. The second are those who cannot understand what the fuss is all about, not realizing the gravity of the details or their consequences, or not wanting to realize it. Together with the second group are the abusers, by default. The second group also enables the abuse, often by ignorance, and sometimes deliberately. These two groups are worlds apart. If they could somehow be bridged, with the second truly understanding the first, survivors would heal and abuse would… Read more »

#4 - get therapy - for the art of empathy
January 25, 2013 7:41 am

Unsympathetic and superficial style of thinjking. Maybe you should take therapy to connect you to peope around you more!

We are all happy for you
January 25, 2013 5:47 am

and shame on #4 for being so dismissive. it is one thing to have been touched inappropriately in the subway, and even (more sadly) in shul. it is a whole other thing to have years of abuse by someone who should be protecting you, and looking out for your welfare, who should be running out in front of a car to save you from injury, and who instead USES that position of your vulnerability for their own selfish sick plans. You (#4) have been listening to Manis too much, and he is referring to a one time event, not to… Read more »

To #4
January 25, 2013 4:20 am

You should be ashamed of yourself , you really have no idea what this abuse victims go thru in life, or you may be a abuser yourself, my child was abused and his life was ruined forever , so before you get up and make this comments maybe you should speak to a abuse victim and you will understand.

January 25, 2013 1:29 am

I understand why u dont want to mention the names of the * ineffective therapists although maybe u should, but if you want ppl to be helped why don’t you share the name of the one who helped you?

Imoi Anoichi Batzoroh
January 25, 2013 1:07 am

Been there, done that. Only problem is I finally got married to a guy who beat me…. now what????

January 25, 2013 12:18 am

You are an inspiration!

I have a close relative who sounds exactly like the way you described. Too many therapists and not connecting with them.

Would you please let us know who the therapist is? Or at least a way to anonymously contact you and find out?

With many thanks in advance.

Yasher Koach to you & COL!
January 25, 2013 12:14 am
What is abuse?
January 25, 2013 12:11 am

every person is abused in one way or another by just about everyone, should we all be locked up? should we all be put to death? there is abuse and then there is ABUSE, so many of us who really get ABUSED but we go on with our lives, and then there are those that get abused and for the rest of their life blame everyone else and the abusers for not making it in life….. Get out there and work, it may be hard but but if there is a will there is a way….. Dont sit back and… Read more »

@ number 3
January 24, 2013 11:31 pm

There are sooooo many stories, you can’t even imagine.. so many people scared to talk.. whats coming up is only a fraction, but coming a long way.
I’d like to commend Collive for putting these stories up, getting rid of the shame, and helping people move forward..

Please... Enough!!!
January 24, 2013 11:23 pm

Stop posting these feel sorry stories!.
We have no sympethy or love for people who seek for extra attention from the public to drag them down into their rotten hole.
Stand up,brighten up and wipe off the dust from previous trauma and no rest.
We all heard Holocaust survivors sharing their stories,trust me they went through Enternal Suffering (to say this politely).
If these survivors were able to build there lives back to normal
how much more so can this women.

it's scary and sad
January 24, 2013 10:53 pm

to think how reoccurring this theme is
it seems like abuse case and story after story keeps surfacing..

Thank you
January 24, 2013 10:26 pm

for sharing your story, your courage and your lesson of hope. We should all be healed from the traumas of our life, and move on in joy, with Hashem’s help.

January 24, 2013 10:24 pm

Name names. The are likely still hurting others .