To Pesha Leah
Tell me, did it hurt? Was it painful? Was there really a bright light at the end of the tunnel, like they describe in the books? Was your relatives who have passed away waiting for you? What was it like?
Were you afraid? Or scared, or even sad? Did you regret not getting the chance to say goodbye? Do you even now long to be back here?
One day. One night. That’s all. Now everything changed.
I don’t know you, but I saw your picture. I recognize you, we were in the same ‘system,’ and I’ve seen you around before. You were in my sister’s class.
It is weird to look at a picture of you and think that you are no longer here. Somehow I don’t understand. Where did you go? Is there really a place called heaven? Did you see any angels? Are you ever gonna come back to tell us how it was?
I’m mad.
I was driving on the highway Thursday and I was nervous, because I’m not used to it. And there were drivers beeping at me when I swerved out of my lane. I wanted to cry. And I thought, what’s your problem? Don’t you see how nervous I am? Cut me some slack, I’m a new driver. And I was stressed, and I came home upset.
And then I found out. I don’t know you, but my tears won’t stop. And I don’t know why you had to go. And I feel selfish for living, when you no longer can. Somehow it seems like your life was more important than mine. I don’t know you, but in my mind you were a better person then me, and you deserved to live, because you were doing such a great job so far.
I know what they will say. You were a special soul, you completed your mission here, it was time for you to go. Now you are sitting by G-d’s throne, you are surrounded by angels, it is good up there. Yes, I know all that, and more.
But there is now a husband without a wife, and the world is missing someone.
I don’t understand it. Maybe I’ll never understand it.
I just discovered your blog. Your poetry is beautiful. It was a sad feeling though. Like, now it is too late. I can go through the archives and read all your old stuff, but your bog will now sit there, drying up, frozen in time, last post dated Tuesday, January 5 2010, just one short day before you were taken. And it baffles me. It makes no sense.
First you were here, and now you’re not, and you’re never coming back? I never had a chance to meet you, or befriend you on facebook. I just found you, your pictures are beautiful. And now that too will lay untouched, cuz no one will update your statuses now.
Please relay this message to G-d: We have suffered enough. We have cried too many tears. It is time to end this golus and send us Moshiach. Now!
Be safe, Pesha Leah. May all the angels be with you, and may you be granted a place right by G-d’s throne, center stage.
And we will see you again very soon, very very soon.
i think each one should think 2 times before posting a comment.
somethings r hurtfull and unnessery!
open ur heart a bit more.
http://a-farbrengen.blogspot.com/2009/10/tragedies-lo-alenu-goad-to-teshuva.html
#24
I don’t understand you. You want to stay away from the truth? On the very Yahrtzeit of the Alter Rebbe, who lost 50,000 chassidim because he demanded Emess Laamitoy?
Where are we now? Moshiach won’t be coming to solve our hiding from Emess.
P.S. In Tanya it is clear that Emess is not a natural from the heart. Brains need to feed the heart Emess. In that case, as many of these comments were direct from the heart… Chagass at best?
pesha, you were a wonderful girl.
when you came in, everyone could feel your presence,your warmth.
ps. pesha was a great poet writer, you can look at her blog, and at old nshei magazines for her poems
Judging by the response you have generated it appears that you have touched a very deep truth. That hurts
Please don’t hurt us like that.
Thank you for sending this letter.
I don’t believe all of you! You’d think that by now it would have entered your head that we’re still in golus because of all the sinas chinam that’s going on all around us. But no, you don’t.
If you look at comment #7 in a negative way, then yeh, it does sound negative. But you can also look at it that yes, it’s true what he says. He really means it…
Please, try to improve your ahavas yisroel!
This is an amazing article. I’m really touched.
May Hashem send Moshiach NOW!!
Whoever you are who wrote this, thank you. I feel like you wrote for all of us, you conveyed the same thoughts exactly that were going through my head.
We need this golus to end NOW!!!!!!!!!!!
wow this is really amazing… i am tearing up from it. this is so true.. words coming from my mouth..
thankyou for writing this.
We are still in the same GOLUS as those that went through the Holocaust. We are shedding the same tears. I just read a book last night “The War of the Jewish Partisan” very recommended reading. It reminds us of the suffering they went through and helps us put things into perspective. Yet, that doesn’t make our current day suffering and sorrow any less. They needed Moshiach and We need Moshiach. STILL. May He come speedily – now and reunite us all.
Beautiful and moving ot tears
u have me in tears
Exactly how I am feeling!!!
To all those who are writing but………..don’t.
This came straight from the heart.
The Rebbe said that Hashem wants us to demand of Him AD MOSAY?
we are all meant to be united. Dont be so nasty and hurtful ! I dont know much but even a child knows that hashem wants us to care about one another and stick together your reaction doesnt bring us any closer to moshiach
the Rebbe said in many Sichos thatwhen we twll Hashem what to do concerning Moshiach, Hashem is happy.He is also suffering in Galus with us and for reasons unknown to us we are still here. Hashem we and you suffered enogh. Send us Moshiach now!!!!
Very sad. Well written article.
But… should we be posting sfeikois , in our Lubavitch websites? Do we want our kids to read that?! Or even adults for that matter?!
“Was there really a bright light at the end of the tunnel, like they describe in the books?”
The day our tears dry up is the day we lose all humanity. The Torah tells us of Moshe’s protest to G-d, “Why have you done evil to this people!?!” The Torah is not a history book, but a manual. Every time we recite a “Yehi Ratzon” prayer, we are telling G-d how we want Him to run this world; in fact, each time we recite the Amidah. The Rebbe publicly and repeatedly, in word, print, and personal example, made it the mandate of every Jew living today to unceasingly complain to G-d over the continuing exile and to demand,… Read more »
k seriously, chill out! u can say that nicely! u know, like a guys sitting shiva, lets remember the ppl of the holocaust and we’re asking hashem to have rachmonus we werent telling him how to run this world.
and then maybe stop telling people what to do aight?
this letter is everything i wanted to say and ask- i wish to know just like you!
we’re all in so much pain !!
the tears don’t stop they just replenish ! ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why is it that when someone writes something as beautiful as this, some has to write a negative sounding response
An 83 year old yid in Melbourne Australia just sat shiva for his brother. But, he said, he was sitting shiva for his mother and father also. They were killed in the Holocaust. Brothers and sisters as well. He could never sit shiva for them. For 64 years. Without a yahrzeit date for any of them. So this was the first time in his life he sat shiva. If you are crying for today’s tragedies, spare a tear for 6,000,000 other tragedies. Six million tears. That should make you all dry up. An then maybe stop trying to tell Hashem… Read more »
Beutiful..
This is beautiful. It is so sad and so heartfelt
but I wish nobody had to write this!!!!!!!!
@ a Bris today when the baby was crying I cried too & asked Hashem to end this long Golus already !!!AD MOSAI!!!
thanx for helping me sort my thoughts
im in tears