I am getting ready for a first date.
I’ve been doing this for years and I’m jaded.
The noise in my head sounds like this:
Why do I date losers?
I’m not going like him and then I feel bad saying ‘no’.
Why can’t I date anyone normal?
What if I end up liking him and then he doesn’t like me?
I don’t have the emotional energy for this.
Then it hits me:
I try to give myself some perspective.
Every person is a Hashem’s gift.
I am a gift and this young man is a gift.
We may or may not be the gift for each other.
We may or may not be a bashert. Let’s find out.
I am going to meet a gift.
I am going to date humbly.